By Jove, I think I’ve got it!
Jesus said something about being like a child in order to enter the kingdom of heaven. What does that mean? Meanwhile, there’s the parable about The Fall – eviction from The GofE – when A&E ate from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. Ditto: what does it mean?
Here’s what I think: I think our pal JC meant that we need to get our mind back to its state of being before we developed an aversion to ourself. I’m talking self-hate, man. That feeling of not being good enough. That feeling of being inferior to others and the fear of being found out. That feeling of thinking you should keep your head down and keep quiet so as not to be a nuisance by existing. And all the nasty self-talk that goes with it.
How on earth did we develop such an aversion? I think it’s because, in our ignorance, we believed the shit we were taught and came to the conclusion that we are an aberration – not good, but bad.
So, to get back to the Garden we need to revert to the state of innocence we took for granted before we were corrupted by the ‘knowledge’ (aka ‘belief’… ie, not fact) of our inherent evil-ness.
And… the ego’s shenanigans – from its own point of view – are all about avoiding the ‘truth’ of its inherent badness from leaking out. Ergo, its endeavours to be ‘good’ are a pretence (from its own point of view). No wonder the vast majority of humanity aren’t into authentic self-expression. Of course a person would behave dishonestly if they believe honesty would reveal their inherent rottenness.
And, of course, the ego believes that because it acts ‘good’ (at least, some or most of the time) it fools the world – and itself – that it is ‘good’. That is part of the ego’s self-denial that keeps people trapped on the merry-go-round.
But… but… but… this idea of badness and unacceptability and inadequacy is a FALSE BELIEF, for heaven’s sake (pun not intended but very apt!!!).
I see it all so clearly. What was once so obscure is now so bleedin’ obvious.
More and more I’m perturbed by the thought and feeling of understanding why Jesus wept… not so much for his own suffering but for his understanding of others’ and the ease with which they could end their suffering if only they’d realise they’ve bought into a bunch of false beliefs.